Remember this

you know what sucks ?

staying the night not because you're trying to accomplish your assignments

but...

it's only

because

you, sucks

too much contemplating on wether you will have a space in another part of this universe.

yes I'm having a talk about love now

nobody is an expert in facing love

everyone is an idiot moronic one in dealing with that.

question no.1

kemana perginya asa setelah meng-abu dan puingnya menari berpencar jauh ke angkasa ?

nb: I need a title for my minithesis :')

what I've been doing in this semester, 6th semester of uni level are..
is..
ohh bloody me, I don't even notice that I've done nothing
I always passionate when about to fill the form of exchange participant and there will be this part : explain what is your experience lately. And then, blank. I got nothing to write, I got no story to tell about and actually I've done nothing marvelously.
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I'd rather being drowned in my campus library than having a chill conversations with my mates here in college. Omg, not because I'm those one of introvert fucking nerds. I'm just realizing that I'm more than an ignorant. I didn't read books much, yeaa I read some, some part of the book haha some pages not some books from the same author. I just need to read more to get to know more. I still don't know what I want in life after being graduated next year (let me say ameen first). Having a career after formal educational feels a lil bit hard, because your career should has relation between what you have learnt in university, therefore there's a small burden called "responsibility". I responsible for what I've learnt in university. Well, I can probably be another business woman kind of person, build a flat rent house, having hectare-hectare paddy field, or having a resto with my significant other. Yes, I can probably do those stuffs but those are the activity that don't have relation with the subjects I've learnt. I feel so guilty. I recently learn about Political Urban, Bureau of Indonesia, Political Globalization, etc related to Political thingy. How can you have a career among those theoretical subjects while your neighbor next door has already being a local police in your hometown. I feel my future, darling. That's why I'm frightened too much. I'd rather put up my career future than my romance. Building a career has ran into the neat box for me lately.

Once Upon In a Chat

7:51 PM lupa hari apa. to Gesa Chandra Tybatinara

"iya nih, cuci handuk doang padahal tapi busanya gak habis-habis"

8.00 PM lupa hari apa. Gesa sent to me

" Kamu baca supernova kan ? iya si Bodhi itu, mungkin orang nangkepnya seru dengan petualangannya kan padahal itu cerita ngena banget di saya. Dia mencari alasannya hidup kan, bahkan dia pengen mati. Sama. Saya juga. Mencari-cari alasan hidup "

8.17 PM lupa hari apa. Sent to Gesa

" Emang harus gitu, semua orang mau cewek mau cowok tetep punya sisi maskulinitas dan feminitas didalam dirinya. Tapi kita terjebak sama rekonstruksi gender di sosial. wkwkw"

8.18 PM lupa hari apa. Sent to Gesa

"mbohhh ges aku ngomong apa"

8.40 PM lupa hari apa. Gesa sent to me

" Tuhan. 1 adalah semua, semua adalah 1. Di dalam kamu ada saya, didalam saya ada kamu. Di dalam kita ada dunia, di dunia ini ada kita. Begitu kurang lebih"

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Good News ! Saya dimasukkin ke dalam satu tim untuk PKM-P dan Jurnal Program Studi. Semoga lancar dan bermanfaat. amien ...

btw, cafe-nya muter John Mayer's best song nih. Tumben :')

maksudnya tumben nemu cafe yang mau muterin John Mayer, biasanya kan yang diputer mesti lagu-lagu anyar. hah. lanjut nugas. bhay !